Not much going on here...E_ hours are getting worse, shake ups at work.  I am wishing for safety I guess,  we get by, by the skin of our teeth now......Christmas groceries the healthcare is going up too. 30.00 office 50.00 specialist and meds for J_at 45.00 a month.  Gosh it seems overwhelming.... I wonder does God hear me or is this another test?  L_ might be moving down, that would be wonderful to have someone to talk to. P_ is pretty busy and has a heavy workload it just would be nice to see a familiar face. A_ comes over 30 miles to see us and I feel so guity, she has a family job lotsa obligations and I hate to burden people when I need help. One of these days God*** I will take care of my family obligations I wish I wish...........strike that ...........Help me God to move......Thank you Jesus for all my blessings E_ J_ J_J_ M_D_G_L_P_J_L_ and many more who have touched my life I patiently{trying real hard} wait for you to direct my path  love nancy

I understand..........I use to be very adamant that I would not be happy to have this disease....thanking Jesus for having this disease but I`m slowly coming round........I know that Jesus didn`t give me this disease because of something I did or didn`t do instead he is using it to mold me polish me make me better. He s making a bad situation to my good. Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not unto your own understanding[analyze-compare-my way]  but in all ways [good or bad] acknowledge him [praise-thank him] he shall direct your path. I`m learning.....I`m learning!! When I learned how to use the computer it was so different an overwhelming and technical and scary but after awhile I learned how to use one.........thinking how God thinks is so overwhelming and terrifying and finally so right , I was looking thru a mirror and saw it backwards now I have turned around and seen the writing on the wall. The fog is lifting .......thank you Jesus

well went to TEP to volunteer for mda......frustrating because it wasn`t wheelchair accessible. Maybe I`m just a baby but wow the terrain was rough an to get to the bathoom it took 15 minutes of fighting to get to the elevator. I hope they reached there target for mda though. They also got a free lunch for the volunteers from Chuys, that Eddie and Jaron loved! I didn`t feel I deserved it since they couldn`t use me, we were there from 9:30 to 3:00 waiting. Going to church reading the bible and listening to family life radio keeps me searchingfor Jesus! I`m less frazzled about what I should be doing. I always think I will get into big trouble if I don`t do something or give something.........the yoke of Jesus is light and loving, not heavy and condeming. When things aren`t working out I use to feel like I was being beat up for doing the wrong thing now I know that is the condemnation of satan. I`m so glad God doesn`t yell or condem me, because there are many days I feel weak and tired and whiny.......thankyou Jesus ......

I have been babysitting for 2 days now, A- is 9 so its been pretty easy. I think Jaylee s getting on her nerves though!! Oh well nothing going on I volunteered saturday for mda octoberfest from 10-4 I have to stand.....I wonder if I can get thru?????? I don`t know what I can do anymore..I guess I`m worried about a fall, it is embaressing and I usually don`t go to the place anymore. I have a hard time holding my headup when  am so embarresed with my clumsiness. oh well life goes on...........