I had gotten a book called “sister Faustina” last Friday and later on Jehovah witness came to the door leaving me a pamphlet. I feel I needed to speak up and say “who do you follow” they have been coming to my door now 10 years and thought it was time……. I bombed trying to explain the trinity and was told “why would Jesus pray to him self if he is God“? Today the answer was right in front of me “Emmanuel, Immanuel= God with us……….Jesus`s name…..next time I will remember. I remember verses and have so many words swirling in my head but cannot seem to get them to my mouth…..This catholic book, I was given to read…”sister faustina“…….. I pray before I start reading …Its dark ….growing up in Catholicism I did not want to be apart of the church. It was …all about turmoil struggle solitude bleak depressing…..this book “sister faustina” tends to lift up human beings[ priests, nuns, Mary Jesus ‘s mother] as high or higher than Jesus. There is a prayer that I remember as a catholic “Hail Mary full of grace” repeat and repeat and repeat….I never took the time to figure out what it meant…[Hail=Hi-Hello a greeting not bowing or kneeling too]...as a catholic you are encouraged to pray to Mary so she will intercede on your behalf……The newspaper Sunday had a big article about a Statue of Mary …Catholicism Mormonism Jehovah Witness Muslim and some Christian religions all have a common problem, they have there own bible written by their people. It is hard to identify God an Jesus in “their” bible or publications that each group puts out because he takes on human attributes…..amazingly as in “sister faustina” her mother and fathers temperaments I recognize as Jesus {mom} Jesus apparition cry’s because she won’t do something ..and God [her father]he is very angry at her and keeps her in employment misery for a year or won’t speak to her. I am absolutely guilty of giving God and Jesus my parents attributes and just recently in the past year reading the bible ..finally…finally I see the picture of God and Jesus…not a human attribute in them, PRAISE GOD!!! A really good pastor and a church filled with loving people, reading the bible and Christian radio has certainly been a learning experience! And of course space friends!! Luke 1:46-55 The song Mary did you know..        was sung at church and the words were posted on the TV screen ….the words Mary did you know ,That you kissed the face of God….kept going around and round in my mind…..as a mother I identify with that…doing that with my kids when they were babies…how blessed this young women is ,to touch the face of God!! Certainly her character since God chose her must be amazing…I am reminded of my little brother Larry's words he wrote to me……..”the bible is full of ordinary people that thru them God did amazing things with , who brought there heart and obedience in line with God’s….Abraham was called “ God’s friend” James 2:23 ……after 80 years of following…the bible invites us to know God by his words…his beautiful God breathed words ….full of wisdom….full of life… they invite you to touch the face of God….

I can not believe my ears!! My son has heard God call his name…he has heard and turned around….the Lord has given me a gift worth a million dollars Jason is numbered in the book of life!! ..........  Church Christmas services terriffic! especially when long time friends come.......MERRY CHRISTMAS to all my friends online ...the many encouragers and uplifting people who follow Christ ....Nina.... Rambling...Nancy.....larry...Larry.....Greg...Theresa....Pastor Rusty..Pastor Winston.....especially Joe and JWL...and the many other friend spaces....thank you for being there and pulling me back up.......those days I can`t or don`t want to hear Jesus, I hear you guys =]            I really love the words and the music on this video......a love song to people who are ready to hear.

I have gotten a lot of emails concerning the use of CHRIST in CHRISTMAS……thank you so much Larry Lane for sending an email with these beautiful words *********** Christmas began in the heart of GOD and is complete only when it reaches the heart of man….author unknown Cause how many kings, stepped down from their thrones?
How many lords have abandoned their homes?
How many greats have become the least for me?
How many Gods have poured out their hearts
To romance a world that has torn all apart?
How many fathers gave up their sons for me?

Bringing our gifts for the newborn Savior
All that we have whether costly or meek
Because we believe
Gold for His honor and frankincense for His pleasure
And myrrh for the cross He'll suffer
Do you believe, is this who we've waited for?
Its Who we've waited for All for me
All for you
All for me
All for you JESUS…………..this a song ' HOW MANY KINGS STEP DOWN FROM ABOVE       ………..reminding people to say Christmas instead of holidays or some other non offending word ……..saying something they don’t really mean it seems would be more offensive to God……how precious the name of CHRIST is to we who follow……I didn’t know until he called my name, I didn’t know until I read his words in the bible…..how do you plant the seed of Christ with love? If we don’t patronize the stores where is the light? How will they know…..my answer peace and blessings from my Jesus to you too =] and your co-workers…….going into the lions den where I don’t want to go I have to envision myself holding that light up high…..the darker the den the brighter the light………I have been so busy just trying to keep the house clean and other chores I don’t seem to have as much time to write. I guess I have more of an interest listening the world on TV news…..I just don’t what to say. Went to church Sunday, kids were misbehaving enough for Eddie to swear he wasn’t going to church anymore. So God has heard from me on that!! Baked cupcakes Sunday for Jaylee’s school Monday. Eddie helped =]…..I can not seem to enjoy these times when I see the mess being made and whether I can clean or not…..so I stepped back and let Eddie finish. On Saturday we put up the tree [artificial] and Eddie did the lights outside. The tree is too big for the corner and comes in 3 pieces, than the lights 3 strands……I finally realized I can’t do this anymore…so a smaller tree is up [artificial] courtesy of Wal-Mart……it looks bare and sad……maybe because I didn’t participate….Eddie got mad and said ”if it isn’t about Jesus I don’t like it” I was somewhat surprised but didn’t say anything…..it’s the progression of this disease…..I have enjoyed baking, Christmas trees, decorating…….sometimes it takes me awhile to say goodbye to things I enjoyed……but those times I believe God understands and gives me time to cope. Thank you Rambling and JWL and Nina for stopping by, It brings a smile to my face to hear from you……I’m still here just moving a little slower, could be the holidays too I seem to have more chores =]….I have gone to YLLESCAS FAMILY BLOG….since Nov I have read her posts…….I have never met this woman or her family, I found her thru the military blog online……….I have to say his wife Dena is a wonderful example of belief in Jesus, faith, and walking the walk. Her husband died from injuries in Afghanistan with an IED……..frequently Christians don’t get the miracles they seek and looking at this believing God works the bad for good it is so hard to see this…..but that picture has not been painted yet….my heart goes out to this women of Christ …such a journey           DOWN HERE, A BETTER WAY…..and Jesus and God on both sides every step of the way……..peace and blessings Dena on your journey. Love the world with Jesus on this holiday...........

Today on Greg Laurie on the radio he said “ Christianity is God's attempt to reach man “I really like that! Christianity today is a definition of ones values…..oddly enough I hear celebrities say that even a playboy girl…….what’s up with that??? They are truly blessed, over and over it is said about jobs money husbands boyfriends life experiences…..I don’t think that was what God meant of blessings and Christianity……many wear the title but only scratch the surface of God’s Christianity and blessings. How sad that many are satisfied with the looks ….I have found many blessings from God are always mixed with hardships…..its pushing thru it and noticing God’s hand in it along the way…its never smooth…..never fun or happy………well maybe that’s not right for some but for me…..when I look back it is always WHEW!! Glad I made it thru that! Wow here we go again……..I finished TCC University last Sunday. Pastor David did a really good job with the seminar “ How to use your education to change the world” I know I know it seems like “emergent church” teachings, but is far from it…..Pastor David McAllister taught…”a relationship with God is a process, taking a step by step process that takes a person from a position of uncommitted to Christ to being right with God and well-prepared and equipped to live a successful Christian life”….I am really learning and I am so thankful of that. I have said over and over Pastor has introduced me to God and Jesus of the bible. Sometimes TV evangelists Catholicism and my human views really skewed who God and Jesus were. ……who knew, the bible is a Christians library!…when I look at the maps of Jerusalem I get a yearning to go, to see….it would be a thrill to see what Jesus saw….maybe one of these days I will get to see Israel………….Jaylee has been experimenting with “curlers” …apparently she has to have curly hair “like you mom” …..she doesn’t know yet FRIZZY!! Anyways those slippery little things GGRRRR it takes me 3-4 attempts to wrap um!! ..she sleeps with her arms as a pillow her face and nose down…..I remember my mother in law would do that for weeks when she got her hair done at the beauty parlor……….Jelly is growing up sitting on the bed watching TV with me………we watch “Jon and Kate plus eight” “what not to wear” “house hunting” and “the duggar family”…….Thanksgiving went ok ….cherry cheesecake, pumpkin pie, dips, jello, potatoes, gravy, rolls and of course turkey……..it was a little lonely but I did call family to talk….Jaron has informed me he wants PS3 4-500 dollars………OUT OF HIS MIND!!!!!! Apparently I am old! Too think 150.00 is a lot of money…….I have not blogged for awhile…..getting thru anger depression…maybe it is anger with God because situations don’t seem to change or get better. Yesterday I turned the radio off the whole day….listening to sermons exhort push encourage…..much of what Pastors say [ on the radio] I am not physically capable of doing……always I am hearing you need too, you should do, have to do, be apart of, give financially physically…it is overwhelming……anger issues with hubby and now kids…….and of course I have to be apart of it……it is a vicious circle that goes round and round……so I turned off the radio and opened the bible……the quiet and reading the bible bring me back to resting in Jesus. …yesterday Jaylee starts the day whining and yelling no with everything!! Brush her hair teeth ,dressing, breakfast….gave her yogurt in the squeeze package….4-5^th time she did it again in her clothes wall and floor table her glasses jacket…..last time it was on the glass door …..she was making pictures…….the time before that, the couch, carpet, walls………time before that my wheelchair, floor, carpet…..so I fixed her wagon, I froze them =]……she likes ice cream for breakfast, and I like it no mess =]…..course when it happened again I lost my temper….she was laughing, =[ I wasn’t! I put her out of the house to go to school with yogurt in her hair clothes and glasses, she went to school and nobody said nothing!!…..Jaron wore his T-shirt to school that says “ taking truth to Tucson john 14:6”……I was surprised because anything that sets him apart he shuns….kids at school had something to say about our church and used cuss words……so Jaron used cuss words too [ my church is better then your church stuff]……Eddie agreed with him……I spoke that if they are no different in behavior from them…it serves nobody….it casts the church down but more importantly it casts Jesus down, no one is listening between these heated exchanges…..the focus is to bring them to Jesus not drive them away…..Pastor say we need to build the wall to build the church and not tear it down…..why would they want to come if his behavior is no different…..well I have to use my words carefully not by lecturing… a little each day to Jaron, so he will hear what Jesus says…..”a relationship with God is a step by step process” so says our Pastor, Jaron has begun his walk!!! And so the walk with Jesus continues, I may not understand or see the whole picture….its ok though….Jesus is by my side pushing that wheelchair [ squeeek, squeeek!!!!!!] lighting my way….I am not alone =].