I can’t believe it I am on the computer!! Jaylee is so thrilled to be on the computer she doesn’t want to get off. Course I seem to get slower and slower finishing my chores. What took me 2 hours 2 years ago now takes me 5 hours. I am like Jaylee I enjoy being on the computer visiting different spaces reading, perusing pictures. I have been feeling depressed just waiting for changes…..anxious…..ready to go… I wrote to a pen pal

“I grieve not being part of my little girls life a spectator only“….pity parties really I am angry AT MYSELF FOR NOT PLANNING THIS DISABILITY BETTER , well enough of that!!!……...I have been reading in Isaiah [9*6] Jehovah witness came to the door and I asked her to read that and said Jewish people did not recognize their Messiah…… Why don’t they?? The Messiah in the Jews mind was a warrior, conqueror a ruler of the world…his first coming was to save……and the next to rule and reign …… so JW’S do not recognize Jesus either. They say he is the son of God but apparently he was an angel first……how can you follow Jesus if you do not know who he is? She said in the bible is a verse that Paul says that he is a god. She says that ’god’ is a different meaning in the bible…….huh??? I didn’t know what to say so I will find this passage she speaks of where Paul proclaims himself “a god“…..I was reading A BLOG TODAY bible prophecy", and " Jerusalem Watchman" not over the top or filled with a lot of secret conspiracy’s but understandable with what is happening in the news and came across this verse Isaiah 43:1-4 "Do not fear, for I have redeemed you;
I have called you by name; you are Mine! Just think to be called by your name [ Jews] by God…….I am so touched and awed to read about God in my bible. It presents a picture of God his character so beautiful and perfect I have fallen in LOVE with God and no human…. NO THING CAN COMPARE TO HIM……. I WAS WATCHING TV AND CAME ACROSS 2 SHOWS THAT LITERALLY TOOK MY BREATH AWAY AND I FELT SUCH SORROW AND HORROW TO HOW THE WORLD THINKS. MSNBC news HAD 2 PEOPLE ON FOR AND AGAINST ABORTION ….HOW THE CATHOLIC CHURCH IS AGAINST ABORTION AND SO SHOULD BE AGAINST THE DEATH PENALTY AND How HYPOCRITICAL IT WAS……HE COULD NOT SEE THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN “INNOCENT” AND “CONDEMNED”….HE WAS YELLING and smiling enjoying I suppose his 5 minutes of fame….I guess he thought he made sense ……….DID ANYONE NOTICE BESIDES THE CHRISTIANS?? RIGHT IS WRONG AND WRONG IS RIGHT…..God is letting go like the ties of a corset one loop at a time….Saturday NIGHT BEFORE Easter on the history channel a show that depicted Jesus with a lover “a young boy”……wow I was sickened and sad..,,,the so called “ world experts” were very happy that they had figured out what the bible “really means”……….reading in my bible the wisdom of God I now know “the experts” are not really learned or super smart…….just foolish world wisdom which is nothing at all. Who is God and Jesus?? If you really want to know I recommend read The Bible……its like learning from God himself.