I had to write about this, I don’t go often in the stores so Sunday after church had to finish school shopping and went to the mall. Went to Sears and then Payless in the mall and rolled along looking at the different displays in the store. A photography place had a 11x20 photo of a young child 3-5 made up a crown with a pink feather boa wrapped around her, sitting and laying down legs curled up……..a really provocative photo…..I asked Eddie , my gosh are they displaying stuff like in front of people!!!! He looks at me weirdly rolls his eyes and says this is not bad what’s wrong with you this is normal………I don’t think so ….I’ve read the bible……..its wrong =[…in the store hanging BIG picts and paintings of women in various stages of undress there back to the camera……….right smack dab in the middle Jesus and the 12 apostles last supper painting……It turns out I’m not missing out, I think I’d rather stay home =[.

Sunday at church Pastor Terry filled in for Pastor David he is a really funny guy! His regular job as a police officer for Tucson Police Department. He is very unique in that most policeman are very tough …worldly tough…….he is a very kind funny and is very disciplined with himself. He has a family with 1 child 6 maybe…..his sermon was on how when he first became a police officer the book was studied and everything had to be by the book……on his first call a break-in at night and the woman called and waited out side for police. He wanted to go in and apply what he learned fresh out of the academy and he emphasized that like a child with a toy…..but it was handled by other officers , no suspects were found in the home and they were taking statements………so he asked his captain if he could train and do what the book says and he was allowed to go into the house…..he did it by the book searching revolver drawn, a closet he checked and noticed cowboy boots size 12 in a women’s closet and then saw legs…….he squeaked “POLICE come out with your hands up NOW…….his commanding voice in the heat of the moment was gone! ……it was hilarious and I so enjoyed the being able to laugh………”the book” Terry said all of what he learned to his job was because of reading the book learning the book applying the book he knew what to do …….guys read the bible………learn the bible………apply the bible……let it anchor you to Jesus and you will always know what to do. He also brought a sieve over a tub and poured a glass of water in it……..the water is the bible the sieve is your brain……..can’t remember that’s ok at least its washing your brain READ…..no excuses READ!! Just a wonderful sermon……..going to Church always pleasant, I look forward to learning about God =] and the people are so nice =].

I am watching bits and pieces of TLC channel ………women giving birth………it takes me back to my kids and that feeling when you hear them cry hands waving feet pedaling…..such heart stopping awe ........such magic…….Then you know there is a God………love and awe…,,,,,,,,,at what your body has produced……I am thinking when a person accepts Jesus in there life that this birth of a newborn is what goes on in heaven magnified 100 times  ……….How we as new parents lovingly take care of our children is 1000 times magnified is how God takes care of us. Too often in Catholicism they taught God punished you for everything you did wrong …….I do realize that God Almighty has a side that is full of wrath and judgment to the unsaved when the full measure has been reached……..but as we love our newborns and care for them is how God cares for people who have been saved and all because of JESUS……….there would be no hope if Jesus had not died on the cross. I am learning to see the face of Jesus in the bible as I finish Galatians, God reminds me what Jesus has done…….. so now I can see his Glory………like the lens in an optometrists office the more lens he tries the clearer the picture gets.

I was getting breakfast for the kids this morning and buttering some bread, Jaylee wanted a bite and was hugging me so I gave her buttered bread hugging her and holding her face……..I think that’s how God gives his words thru the bible when his children seek him ….with love and tenderness feeding me with the bread of life its perfect and filling and I hunger for it day after day…….2 Samuel 22-29 I stood there saved—surprised to be loved!
21-25 God made my life complete
when I placed all the pieces before him.
When I cleaned up my act,
he gave me a fresh start.
Indeed, I've kept alert to God's ways;
I haven't taken God for granted.
Every day I review the ways he works,
I try not to miss a trick.
I feel put back together,
and I'm watching my step.
God rewrote the text of my life
when I opened the book of my heart to his eyes.
26-28 You stick by people who stick with you

Looking out my window into God’s world He is absolutely the best cleaner…just with my eyes I can see how perfectly the outside gets cleaned up, the birds, bugs, rodents they all cleanup after each other…..decaying wind rain snow……when I see pictures of area that no man has been…….its perfect……….thousands and thousands of years it is clean and everything that lives in it thrives…….I am told that the ocean is the biggest toilet………..everything living in it has a job to do, cleaning up after each other……..everything done in order to accomplish……….God built everything around the human beings…..perfectly…….and Humans were made to worship and serve and love the living God. Just one thing thru everything out of whack ……man and his will. HOW GREAT IS OUR GOD FROM MY SOUL.......I KNOW and rejoice........how great is my joy...........that he has called my name.......

There are many accounts in the Bible of the Jewish people murdered for being God’s chosen…..Thinking about the holocaust and how the Jewish people were killed by gas, gunshot, starvation so many evil ways and evil things done because they were the chosen people of God……….it seems looking at what happen then will happen during the tribulation to Christians in Revelations. The antichrist when you read in the bible of different periods [lions den, beheading, the killing of baby boys] of killing of Jews, the persons in charge have all the characteristics of the antichrist probably because Satan was behind every one of those periods to try and win against God and even the holocaust was something Satan was completely in the middle of….. so now knowing about the holocaust and that dark period is NOT UNIMAGINABLE it has happen in our world but will be even worse….. what the Bible says in Revelations about persecution of Christians is coming and I think soon.………….Pastor Scott Richards made a comment about trials and tribulations on earth that Christians experience…”trials and tribulations going thru them you say glad that ones over with whew! Cruising time…….no , if your like me its like an airport with planes coming and going when one leaves the next one comes….what freaks me out when 5 are trying to land at the same time!”,….,,,,,,lololo glad I’m not the only one! Looking at other strong Christians reminds me that it is not punishment just polishing =]……..My sheep listen to my voice; I know them, and they follow me.

~ John 10:27, NLT…….Jesus`s voice is in THE BIBLE that’s how I know his voice, who he is, his character, what he wants from me ……….If I am on the computer and visit different spaces, I cannot see them but there character comes thru in there writing ,pictures they post whether it is  cartoons or real the colors they use……a persons words show me there true character. The Bible shows me the true character of God and Jesus…………imagine I took 47 years to read about God what was I thinking!!

I am realizing how perfectly God has made everything, listening to a sermon Pastor Mike Petzer , he says It took one man to sin for the fall of man “Adam” and it took one man to save mankind “Jesus” how perfect is that , a circle a seesaw in my minds eye, problem …..a fix….all in God’s timing!

on the radio a pastor said no person who accepts Christ is able to walk away and say I don’t want to be a Christian anymore……..how can you be unborn……..its impossible once you have been sealed as a child of God , the holy spirit once received stays forever……Judas Iscariot one of the apostles who sold Jesus for 30 pieces of silver was so grieved he committed suicide, Jesus also called him a devil……….would he still be saved………..in Jude it speaks of the Devil taking a third of the angels with him, they chose to walk away , the consequences then now and present God will hurl them into the pits of Hell…….the bible is full of living life God’s ways or mans way. When I think of not following Jesus……the picture I get is turning around no road a void a black hole following Jesus looking ahead there are road signs light people people people bright colors landscaping l……life…….I need to really study Galatians I pray for discernment ……….how I teach my kids about God Jesus and the Bible has to be what God says!

My day starts with 940am radio a Christian radio that has sermons from pastors in Tucson Sierra Vista Phoenix and well known Greg Laurie, James McDonald, Dr V. McGee, Dr. Dobson, and many more…but the ones who I heard todayRobert Furrow and Scott Richards both of Calvary churches was pretty inspiring. Pastor Furrow says being a Christian and walking in the light is like…… wearing nice new white tennis shoes one person tries to keep them white and clean avoiding mud and dirt at the end he tells God I am so sorry to bring them dirty, I wanted to give them to you white and clean and the other Christian avoids a few mud holes [sin] but after awhile he looks down and says they get dirty anyways so he just plows thru mud and dirt and when he gets to the end he throws them at Jesus and says ,“you clean them“……..will he clean them? Pastor Furrow says I don’t know but…….for me I would rather avoid the mud holes……I like listening to them Furrow and Richards because they take our human ways and show how absurd they are with who God and Jesus are…….much like my Pastor David McAllister . Galatians 3-4 I am reading today with Dr. J. Vernon McGee…..this chapter [Galatians] is excellent for the new believer and the old believer to renew in your mind and life what Jesus did for you ….legalism, empty rituals and generally going round in circles to please God…..brings you back to Jesus and how simple it is Galatians 3-22 If such is the case, is the law, then, an anti-promise, a negation of God's will for us? Not at all. Its purpose was to make obvious to everyone that we are, in ourselves, out of right relationship with God, and therefore to show us the futility of devising some religious system for getting by our own efforts what we can only get by waiting in faith for God to complete his promise. For if any kind of rule-keeping had power to create life in us, we would certainly have gotten it by this time.

23-24Until the time when we were mature enough to respond freely in faith to the living God, we were carefully surrounded and protected by the Mosaic law. The law was like those Greek tutors, with which you are familiar, who escort children to school and protect them from danger or distraction, making sure the children will really get to the place they set out for.

25-27But now you have arrived at your destination: By faith in Christ you are in direct relationship with God. Your baptism in Christ was not just washing you up for a fresh start. It also involved dressing you in an adult faith wardrobe—Christ's life, the fulfillment of God's original promise…

On Saturday JARONS BIRTHDAY BIG 15 !!!!!=0.…Alexis came over with her daughter Zoë and brought 3 big bags filled with shoes and clothes. WOW, prayers were answered, [Thank You Jesus] in a wheelchair things are not as easy to do …to participate in life. I can’t just not do them, my kids still need me to parent them in all kinds of ways. Making meals giving baths cleaning house laundry. Dental, Dr.s, grocery shopping , things that take me away from home is getting so much harder to coordinate. Jaylee starts kindergarten this year bustops ,teachers, school, what if she gets sick in school, many things run thru my mine…..I like to have my ducks in order…….scripture comes to “I will not leave you or forsake you” “I am always with you” I am for you, who can be against you” …..so the bags of clothes, Jaylee changes every 2 hours with a new creation complete with shoes =]…I groan about it because there are clothes everywhere but its funny to see her do things I use to do and she is so happy to start school.…..I prayed to God ….The bags of shoes and clothes came…… expenses ,gas, going to the stores , in an out of the car especially with this heat 109 takes a lot of energy coordination and Jaron and Jaylee fight with each other , Eddie unhappy with the kids…..so God answered my prayers and its ENOUGH shoes and clothes for the year even 2 coats! So now its Jaron turn to get ready 10^th grade =0 oh my!!!….spring cleaning the kids bedroom ALL of us were fighting crying yelling……..goodness its difficult to let go of toys clothes even broken items! I am sure that is what God is telling me about my life……..boy am I wrestling talking yelling crying begging……finally like the rooms it has to be cleaned……the kids rooms are done……but for me its slow going =[…….but one by one it is being thrown away, I have a lot of broken toys.

Reading in John 5-12*14 today opened my eyes to having a disease and being healed….JOHN 5-12*14 The paralytic did not know Jesus and was healed, in my NIV bible it reads “the man was cured, ordinarily faith in Jesus was essential , but here the man did not know Jesus. So while Jesus usually healed in response to faith , he was not limited to a lack of it”. …..In church Sunday a friend spoke of a church that was full of energy with tongues and healing and children pray over you and I should go …..my family was in church like this for many years mother , brother , sister, all were not healed……I am reading GALATIANS 3 and over and over Christians are striving to do what God has already done…..when your faced with a disease it comes out as sin and not enough faith…..sometimes you have to rest in Jesus and read the bible to find out…..Jesus loves you the way you are and he will change you to what he wants whether able or disabled…..it isn’t up to me =] Thank you Jesus I sure was getting tired……

Two edged sword, I USED to have a picture of God with a sword proceeding out of his mouth I had no idea what that meant……now I UNDERSTAND AND CAN APPLY IT………when speaking of god what is expected …..have I done what I am speaking of…..am I doing it…….having 3 fingers pointed back at me………GOD JESUS and THE HOLY SPIRIT……..hypocrisy …..I am so guilty of. ……………………..Scott Richards Live ……………………………Is another really good pastor that has a lot of wisdom on God and the bible. I love to listen to his answers, he not only is compassionate but never belittles or condemns a Christian who seeks answers…I just love the way he is always upbeat and kind always giving verses from the bible to help the seeker. I think I rotate towards the King Solomon’s persona, Godly wisdom!! My Pastor, Pastors on the web……..such a wealth of information……I am a sponge and very thirsty at that =)