I get so busy with things going on in the real world my observations get pushed back. Last week I had dental appointments homework Jaylee had to do, she was getting early out from school parent teacher conference. She had a field trip to Frys her “first ever cation” she was so excited they walked to the store and back to school….ate a sour apple and a cookie and bread…..on the way back she had a tummy ache and had to be carried back to school…I got a call from the nurses office that she was in the bathroom and had soiled her clothes. It was the first time I left the house and drove in months. Getting the wheelchair in the garage in the car extra clothes in the purse…finally set off with a prayer and made it safely. I parked in the grass and dirt no other place to park except illegally! I didn’t need a ticket so I traveled cross country with the wheelchair and finally made it to the school and into the nurses office…Jaylee is sitting in there with (her dog) pug purse she is crying again so back to the bathroom…so exasperating can’t fit a wheelchair in the bathroom so I was trying to pat her back and comfort her clean her….backing out got stuck with the metal trashcan and my wheels……..it was really hilarious…looking back at it now, people are watching possibly the noise bong bong of the wheelchair and metal trashcan stuck together...lolol……we finally left school going cross country to the car! Said a prayer to get safely home….Jaylee wants me to take her to school and pick her up! Right….. Had a dental appt later that day…..nervous…stomach churns….hands are ice cold…..usually big big bills lots of pain and visits….I prayed over and over and over. X-rays 10 , sign release papers surgery if necessary...yikes!!!….I don’t know why in the dental office is a big picture 1-5 stages of teeth going bad….I am mentally comparing mine 1-5 stages 20 minutes…waiting is like the spanking you get as a kid….go in the bedroom and wait for me!…the waiting is worse than the spanking, I would pray breathe exhale ….and look at the picture…..pray breathe exhale….look at the picture….over and over…20 MINUTES of praying breathing exhaling. ….no major work , thank you Jesus! Sunday Pastor spoke of worship to God in how you live your life not just on Sundays. I am getting that it is all day everyday in every part of your life. A group I joined on Yahoo ….I was sent an email not to speak of religion because it offends people who live in different countries. I wrote back God is welcomed everywhere I go his thoughts are my thoughts I can not separate from him to deal with other people, so I have opted out of the group. I thought about it and prayed about it for a couple of days…oh well another door will open. Jaron`s teacher came to our house 6:30 pm on Friday……..boy was I shocked! I sent an email to all his teachers to please let me know if he was acting up……I took him off the adderallXR and so he is going solo on focusing and controlling behavior. He is 15 , since 7 he has been on it, he can’t possibly be on it for the rest of his life……….some questionable grades and comments on his progress report prompted me to email teachers. The “teacher” has 7 kids and I’m sure had better things to do….he stayed for an hour to tutor and makeup homework….it looks like its going to be a roller coaster ride this year……I am so glad his teachers care so much……I have never had a teacher come to me, what dedication =)……..course Jaron`s face PRICELESS!! All this just Thursday and Friday …whew glad that’s over!……

I has saved this because in my life I can identify with this. I look at the different aspects of my families life accepting Jesus “ being saved” what wonderful things God has in store for the members of my family. From my perspective it has been a monumental struggle…no healing….finances….unequally yoked…..you look and wonder where are we going wrong….such glowing terms of prosperity healing serving in the Christian’s life …my disease has progressed mom’s Lisa’s John’s …marriages dissolved… the list goes on and on, the storms swirl around us constantly…storm after storm, 2-3 at a time never resolving just getting smaller and looming near getting bigger if I look at it…I believe everything the bible says everything that Jesus says God says…….I told my sister in Job it says “though he slay me I will yet believe“………..September 9, 2008

ACCEPTING GOD’S PLAN
by Charles R. Swindoll

Read Job 24:1--25

David, in Psalm 139, makes the appropriate comment, "Such knowledge is too wonderful for me; it is too high, I cannot attain to it" (v. 6). If David lived today, he would write, "This blows my mind." The vastness of God's inscrutability has a way of doing that to us---and so it should.

If nothing else, the study of Job reveals that we don't fully understand God's ways. We cannot explain the inexplicable. We cannot fathom the unfathomable. So let's not try to unscrew the inscrutable.

If only the men who considered themselves Job's friends had acknowledged that. It would have been so much more comforting to Job, sitting in such enormous misery, longing for an arm around his shoulder and someone honest enough to say, "We're here, but we don't understand why this is happening any more than you do. God knows, but we're here to be with you through it. God is doing something deep and mysterious, but it is so beyond us we cannot understand it either."

May I go one step further? God doesn't have a "wonderful plan" for everybody's life. Not here on earth, for sure. For some lives His plan is Lou Gehrig's disease. For some lives (like Job's) His plan is a life of pain. For others, heartbreak and brokenness, blindness or paralysis, or congenital complications. For many, His plan is to answer no to their requests for healing. But we don't like that. Some won't accept it. In fact, they go so far as to say, "If you believe that, you lack faith." On the contrary, I say if you believe that, you believe the Bible!

The Bible describes the lives of people who don't get well, who don't quickly get over their problems, who don't easily overcome accidents or illnesses. God's Word pictures its heroes, warts and all. They hurt. They fall. They fail, and on occasion, by His grace, they succeed.

How well do you accept the unfolding plan of God for your life?  

There seems to be a difference of “opinion” of who God is…I am told” God of love“, I am “told” no-where in the bible does God “judge” people or name call……… ….the whole bible talks about the judgment of God, his wrath poured out, he IS a God of love but GOD defines his love…..I am told that what I say is not “very Jesus-y”  amazing love….I was told the “God” I speak of is “my”…… interpretation…….how far will I debate...….glorifying God is what it is about ......not beating people over the head with the bible...planting the seed……..So It all started with a women’s right to choose abortion and the wrath of God is coming…written by another Christian with quotes by mother Theresa…..there were other things said that they felt were belitteling  but I need to say this….. the bible to me IS God’s word…..the God they spoke of has human attributes…..I heard that the bible was written FOR man BY God, not By man about a God. Its funny  I would be shocked, horrified, angry, unbelieving reading the bible when I first got saved….the bible has now gone from biography… RULES to guide, biography to love letters FROM God. How’d that happen!! =]  they said what I use to say...they were me..

Jaylee was sick tues and wed and went back to school….I always ask her …..miss me…….no mom! A good thing really I don’t have to fight her to get ready for school. Jaron years and years fighting him to be on time home work just getting him up to get ready…….this year Eddie gets to push him =]…I have been sitting here listening to radio about              9-11 then I did not know God…….that is the worst tragedy…..to not know Jesus…….Since he himself has gone through suffering and testing, he is able to help us when we are being tested.

~ Hebrews 2:18, NLT

46 “So why do you keep calling me ‘Lord, Lord!’ when you don’t do what I say? 47 I will show you what it’s like when someone comes to me, listens to my teaching, and then follows it. 48 It is like a person building a house who digs deep and lays the foundation on solid rock. When the floodwaters rise and break against that house, it stands firm because it is well built. 49 But anyone who hears and doesn’t obey is like a person who builds a house without a foundation. When the floods sweep down against that house, it will collapse into a heap of ruins.”

I was watching a commercial a commercial on what channel I don’t know but was so incensed…….two KIDS boy and girl 12-13 they were facing each other and I couldn’t hear what they said but it would show him and then her each unbuttoning there pants…..it was drawn out panning back and forth, I suppose to make you think of the first time …………then both took off their pants held hands and jumped off the pier together in the water…..I`m sure the child predators just loved it …..It made me sick to see such provocative stuff on TV….hubby thought I was being to judgmental…….All I can see ahead of me is fighting him Jaylee and the world when she is 10.…..I marvel at the way "I" see the world…..Eddie sees it the way I use too….I have changed …God has changed me…….and that is a very good thing!